“Here she goes again right?” ” Starting over?” Let’s address the elephant in the room. Somewhere down the line I lost sight of my goals. I’m not afraid to admit it or be transparent about this. I used to enjoy working out, meal prepping, every post was about health and fitness. Little did y’all know but my motivation was all wrong. I wanted that REVENGE BODY and dropped 44lbs to impress everyone but me. Let’s skip to the end of 2015 into 2016. I was drinking like a sailor, turning up and putting whatever kind of food into my body. I was missing a lot of things, self-love and discipline were the main two. My weight is something I’ve always struggled with, and I’m an emotional eater. If I’m happy, sad, mad, stressed or in between I’m eating. Skip to the end of 2016 and into 2017. I see the changes in my body and my significant weight gain and I’m unhappy with it. In addition to my insecurities, my anxiety and depression were off the wall. Do you think I went to the gym? No.
I continued to eat. It’s still an uphill battle and I have my days, but I’m finally done and I want to see a change. I’m detoxing my life, bad food, alcohol, candy, toxic situations, bad habits, people, ALLAT! It has to go. I realized that my weight is something I’m going to have to work at forever, and it doesn’t matter how many times I hit the reset button, as long as I do. I’m starting this journey for the billionth time and committing to it. It’s time I became consistent for once in my life, but that’s another blog post. I will be using this in conjunction with my YouTube Channel and old fitness Instagram to hold myself accountable and restart document the process.
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